i got the idea to write this from happyNONSENSE's xanga site. i'm glad i did. 1. I was so freaking mad when they changed the brand of jeans from tilt to bullhead at pacsun. My favorite pair of jeans is no longer available there. I can’t find them anywhere. I refuse to even shop for things at pacsun anymore just because I’m still angry about it. 2. When I listen to my chemical romance it makes everything seem okay. They gave me hope when I needed it the most. They made me feel like it was okay to be different and weird, and completely awkward because they grew up the same way. They restored my faith in life and made me feel a million times better about who I am. 3. I always blast my music to try to drown out my thoughts, it never works, but the music still makes everything a whole lot better than it was beforehand. I connect to it more than I can connect with most people. 4. I love my family, but I completely despise how closed-minded and bigoted they are. It disgusts me to listen to them talk about other people because they hate most everyone who isn’t just like them. 5. I watched the video for thunder by boys like girls and I fear that I will never be able to have fun like that, because I don’t have enough friends that will do those crazy things with me, I only have one or two as of now. I hope I meet more soon. 6. I fear that I won’t have enough money to give my kids a good life because everything is so expensive and it just keeps going up. I don’t want to raise my kids in our already insane and corrupted world. It’s only getting worse, I can’t imagine what it’s going to be like in 10 years when I’ll be at the age to have children. 7. I believe that every body shape and size is beautiful, I don’t care if you’re a size 4 or 14, you are gorgeous. I wish people would stop hating their bodies when there is absolutely nothing wrong with them. Flaunt what you got :) 8. I hate it when people just bitch about everything instead of making an effort to change it. Stop bitching, start a revolution. 9. Goldfish have a memory span of 3 seconds. When I was younger I used to tell my goldfish all of my secrets. He never could have remembered what I was saying, thank goodness. 10. I have been slammed in the face with car doors, cement floors, baseballs and a piece of a huge log, I lost a few brain cells in these situations. I blame my inability to do simple math solely on those facts. 11. I cannot stand whores. I hate it when girls make an effort to be slutty. It seriously disgusts me. You don't have to take off your clothes to be pretty. 12. I want to draw a really good picture, I want to make a beautiful sculpture, I want to paint a great portrait. I want to create something beautiful. Too bad I’m about as artistic as a rock. 13. I have to have my other knee surgery come October, I already had one done. After this horrible experience I never want to do this again. I feel like a whole year of my life will have been missed out on. 14. My first kiss was not with who everyone thinks it was with. I lied. 15. When I was in 2nd grade, I used to think that I would marry JC Chasez from NSYNC. I asked a magic 8 ball if me and him would have sex, it said, “Most Definitely”. I’m so glad that will never happen. 16. When I was in 6th grade, I lied about everything to make myself sound cooler. I still feel bad about it. I wish I never would have gotten caught up in all that. 17. I’m really sick of playing softball, and to be honest I wish I never started playing in the first place. It’s not my dream to play softball in college, it’s my mother’s. and I’m done trying to pursue it for her. 18. My favorite holiday is Halloween, not because of the candy, but because I love getting the shit scared out of me. It’s my favorite time of year. 19. I can’t wait ‘til I can go on a road trip with my friends. If my parents aren’t going to let me, I plan on leaving in the middle of the night without them knowing, just for the thrill of it. 20. I believe it is my duty as a teenager to occasionally mess with my parents. They don’t really intimidate me at all. 21. I am completely and utterly terrified of growing up. 22. When I download a lot of new music at once, it gives me a warm fuzzy feeling inside. It’s one of the simple things in life that I love. 23. When I was in 1st grade, a kid tried to kiss me on the swing and I pushed him off. He moved the next year. I looked him up on myspace the other night and damn, he’s hot, I should have hooked up with him then. 24. I probably spend 80% of my life with my headphones jammed into my skull or my cell phone stuck to my face. 25. I read postsecret and failblog like it’s my job. I never miss an update. 26. I want to tell my children and grandchildren crazy stories from my young adulthood and teenage years. And I want every word of it to be true. 27. I love cloudy, gloomy, breezy days. I only like sunny days when I’m at the beach or the pool. Otherwise, they just bother me. 28. I have not completed one book I was supposed to read for my so far, 2 years of honor’s English classes. I still end the trimester with an A or a B everytime. 29. I always feel like my family doesn’t accept who I am. My brother makes me feel like a loser because he plays varsity football, gets perfect grades, and has tons and tons of friends. My parents praise him all the time for being so great. It sickens me. 30. The first book I ever bought was ‘My Chemical Romance: This Band Will Save Your Life’. No one believes me because I just bought it at age 15. 31. My cousin amber introduced me to Green Day in 6th grade. I love her so much for that because from there, my musical interest branched off and grew into what it is today. And plus I went to my first rock concert with her, green day, where I discovered the band that would save me from myself, my chemical romance. Thank god she took me with her. 32. Most people say their heroes are their parents, but to be completely and totally honest, I don’t want to grow up to be like them. They are far too racist and closed-minded. My real hero is Gerard way, take it or leave it. 33. One of my favorite things to do is ride my fourwheeler. But I’m not a redneck, I swear. 34. I watch youtube videos all the time, probably more than I should. 35. There’s a very strange man who sits around the mall wearing flamboyant and flashing clothes. He sits there listening to his music and trying to draw attention to himself. I’m really curious to know what his deal is, like what’s his issue? 36. I am just waiting for the day I turn 18, the first thing I want to do is get a tattoo. I can’t wait to be allowed to do what I want without my parents consent. 37. People have told me I’m very mature for my age. That really scares me. 38. When I was little, I used to think my whole life was a movie. I thought there were hidden cameras everywhere. 39. The walls in my room are an ugly off-white color, I hate having to tell people that because it makes me seem boring. But the thing is, almost every inch of the walls are covered with posters of my favorite bands. My room is a lot more interesting than they think. 40. I used to listen to the song ‘bad day’ everyday after school on the bus home. I know I am happier than ever before because when I get on the bus, instead of that, I’m listening to songs like ‘everything’s magic’ and ‘sidewalk sing along’. I love that feeling. 41. Josh is the only true friend I have ever had. He may not know it, but he is the major reason I’m as happy as I am these days. I’ve finally found a friend that’s worth sticking with. 42. There’s this very old guy with a huge beard who drives by my house in a rusted, beat up, old hippie van and I wave to him everytime he passes. His face always lights up when I wave. It makes me happy to see him smile. I get the feeling he’s very lonely. I’ve been waving at him since I was in 4th grade. 43. I have only had 2 real relationships. They don’t seem to work for me. I can’t wait until the day I find a guy worth sticking with, one that says he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. Oh that will be the day. 44. When I walk into places like Hollister and Abercrombie with josh, I feel all out of place. The people in there stare at me a lot, but honestly, I’m just glad I’m not like them. They smell like they took a swim in cologne/perfume, ew. [no offense] 45. ‘Give me classy, give me trashy, give me anything that breathes conviction.’ That quote describes my taste in music, art, and photography. I love anything that pushes the limits. 46. I think that when Sylvester Stallone is in the character of Rambo, he is the sexiest man alive. I get strangely turned on by him. 47. My real dream is to become just like steven smith from fuse. That’s what I want to do. No one believes that I will. I’ll try my hardest to prove them wrong. 48. I think the Beatles knew everything. All you need is love. 49. I wish people weren’t so superficial. If we let little things like zits, freckles, weight, or hair get in the way, we’re never going to meet anyone good. 50. When I come home with change from shopping, the movies, etc., instead of putting it all in one place, I chuck it in my room without looking so I have to work to find it later and buy ringtones with it. 51. I love with when my jeans are so tight that I can barely breathe, it’s great. 52. My brother told me I have cankles when I was in 6th grade, I’ve worn high tops ever since just to make him feel bad, it doesn’t work, but I found my new favorite type of shoe because of it, thanks bro. 53. I seriously think I was born in the wrong decade. I wish I was born in about 1965, so I could grow up in the 70’s and 80’s. 54. Dudes with long hair turn me on. A lot. 55. I am a firm believer that Jon Bon Jovi had the sexiest hair from the 80’s, even though Bret Michaels came in a close 2nd. 56. I am pro-choice. People try to make me feel bad about it. I don’t. so don’t try. 57. I’m not religious at all. I have pretty much drifted away from everything that I was taught as a child about Christianity and god. I just live by what I think is right and it’s been going fine, so I’m sticking to it. And don’t preach to me, the last thing I need is you telling me what to believe. 58. My mom was 86 lbs. when she got married, there is not the slightest chance that I will be able to fit in and wear her wedding dress. I barely fit in her t-shirts from when she was 20, jeeeez, I’m glad I'm not as tiny as she was. 59. I have a crazy cat lady aunt. And she puts cat stickers inside every birthday card she sends me. It creeps me out so much. 60. My first concert was NSYNC in 2nd grade, I was seriously unhealthily obsessed with them. 61. I pretty much live in my basement, away from my family upstairs. I rarely go up there, and I don’t feel bad about it at all. 62. If you play Heat of the Moment by Asia, I will not be able to resist the urge to belt it out. 63. My dog midnight is the best listener I know. I can tell her anything :) 64. When I was in 7th grade, I was sitting at my desk and Mr. Senk bent over to help josh who sat next to me and he hit me in the face with his butt. He didn’t even apologize, I’ll never forget it, it was the strangest moment of my life :P 65. Every time I have to fold clothes, I put my brother’s stuff on pink hangers, just to spite him. 66. I always chew on the tab from my pop cans. I know it ruins my teeth, but I can’t stop. 67. I have extremely manly handwriting. 68. I like to sign my papers at school with strange names just to make the teachers wonder about me. 69. The worst class I’ve ever taken in my life was geometry with miss tisher. I hated everyone and everything about that class. I’m so glad I never have to do that again. 70. I’ve been to the hospital more times already than most people will go in their lifetime. 71. I never thought it would be so hard to come up with 100 of these. 72. I walk pigeon-toed. I’ve been told a million times that I walk weird. 73. I hate it more than anything when people walk up to me and tell me my hair is really curly or that I’m really short. I just look at them and reply, ‘thank you captain obvious!’ god that is obnoxious. 74. I absolutely despise the color of the carpet in my room.. it’s brown. Ew. 75. I love my cousins. Barbie and amber are my favorites. My family is lots of fun. 76. Do not compare me to Shirley temple or I will rip your arm off. I don’t look like her and I can’t stand it when people say I do. Fuck that. 77. I am a huge fan of stand-up comedy. My favorite comedians are lewis black, dane cook, mitch hedberg and Daniel tosh. RIP mitch. 78. When I was little I used to think football players just had really big shoulders. I didn’t discover that these were actually shoulder pads until like 3rd grade. 79. I hate monopoly. It just reminds me that I don’t manage my money well. 80. I love being in the mosh pit. I got punched right in the face by some girl, got thrown on the floor, kicked in the stomach, licked across the face, and almost broke a rib at the house of blues. It was one of the best nights of my life. 81. I have a collection of energy drink cans. My doctor would kill me if she saw how many I’ve drank. 82. Night time is my time. I hate mornings, but i love coffee. 83. I rated every song in my itunes library 5 stars, I would feel bad if I rated some better than others. I love them all. 84. I have a huge old man crush on Dave Grohl from the foo fighters. I hope he never shaves his beard again. 85. I honestly believe that I have better taste in music than anybody else in the world. That may sound stupid, but it’s how I feel. 86. I am a huge fan of limewire. Yes I steal my music. I’m not afraid to admit it. 87. I hate sitting in silence. Even during school I have to tap my pencil because I need some sort of noise to concentrate. When I’m at home there’s always music or a tv on because I can’t stand just sitting there when it’s so quiet. 88. My biggest goal in life is just to be happy. 89. I love to wear color, but I sweat a lot, more than most anyway. I wear a lot of black because of it. I wish I could wear colors everyday. 90. My dad accidentally knocked a beer over and it dumped all over my head when I was 4, I was so mad. I don’t know why I still remember this. 91. The scariest dream I’ve ever had in my life was when I dreamt that Michael Jordan was talking to me, I left, then came back and he turned into a white burglar and he had on a bandit mask. I had this dream when I was in 1st grade, it still creeps me out. 92. I use up to 9 different hair products every morning. I don’t really need to explain why, do i? 93. Me and my cousin Barbie had a port-o-party! :D we danced in a port-o-potty at our family reunion. I’ll never forget that. 94. I love a lot of things that are bad for me. Especially taco bell and penn station. 95. I like danger. It excites me. When I get into a dangerous situation I find it really exhilarating. 96. I remember going to the pool after a game of paintball in my bathing suit and people kept asking me why I had welts all over me, it was hilarious. I ran out of CO2 and was shot about 21573213 times, but it was the most fun game I ever played. 97. I love staring up at the stars at night. It’s so beautiful and so relaxing. 98. I got the idea to write this thing from some girl’s xanga site last night, I’m glad I did. 99. Growing up hanging out with boys I learned one very important thing: if you’re gonna be dumb, you gotta be tough. 100. If you actually went through and read all these comment with the word DUDE! I’d like to know who actually reads them all. | 
